Love Struck Romeo On The Streets Of Serenede'

You want a piece of me?

barenomore@me.com — Mon, 10 Aug 2009 03:03:52 GMT

Rarely will I ever post a public post. This is your chance to read my shit and leave a comment if you want to be added. Sara and I had to rehome Koby and Leela today. Leela was pretty easy to adopt out. I even thought Koby would be fairly simple but once the door closed and he was gone my heart broke and I'm not sure it's started breathing since. Leela barked too much and was not an ideal pet for an apartment/townhome. Koby was wonderful in all ways but he needed a yard and more attention. I'm glad we found a home that seems to be perfect for him. Sadly, the hurt has not subsided.

This year has been pretty crappy. I'm ready for things to change, yo.

Bravedancing

barenomore@me.com — Fri, 03 Jul 2009 18:04:35 GMT

I'm still standing. Even if it seems like the world crumbled down before my eyes and perhaps it did. I am certainly not where I was a month ago nor am I where I thought I'd be a month later. Everything that has happened has happened for a reason. Even the ugly. I saw who my real friends are....I discovered fake/temporary love, true friends, real love, and the true meaning of "I'll stand by you". I've never been one to throw around the word "friend". I've watched people come and go out of my life too frequently to take that word for granted. To those of you who stuck and continue to stick by me....thank you.....I love you. To anyone who doubted me.....fuck you. Watch me while I shine and you wonder "what if".

In other news.....Rachael Sage is an amazing singer, songwriter, etc. May this song brighten up someone else's day as it has mine:

Lyrics to Bravedancing :
You came to me like lightning upon a picket fence,

shattering my illusion with shockingly bad sense,

and I may never feel the same,

but I won't always feel this pain.

So let faith fall on me now

I'm gonna be here til the end

if you do not see me bend, then you know I will have been bravedancing.

You rain to me like ashes; volcanoes come and go.

You seem to have such passion for someone so shallow, and I may never feel the same,

but I refuse to play these games.

So let faith fall on me now

I'm gonna be here til the end

If you do not hear my voice,

then you'll know I've had no choice.

So let faith fall on me now

I'm gonna be my own best friend..

If you do not see me bend,

then you will know I have been bravedancing.

I see the moon about to bloom into thousands of bright yellow roses,

and they'll be spreading their light across the sky,

and I wish my garden could grow this.

When friendship is so frightening, it's hard not to overthink.

Kisses were like kite-flying; I knew we'd sail or sink,

and I might never feel the same,

but you must see how much I have changed.

So let faith fall on me now

I'm gonna be here till the end.

Faith fall on me now, oh

I'm gonna be my own godsend.

If you do not hear my voice,

then you'll know I've had no choice.

So let faith fall on me now;

I'm gonna be my own best friend.

And if you do not see me bend

then you will know I have been,

if you do not see me bend then you will know where I have been:

bravedancing

R.I.P.

barenomore@me.com — Mon, 29 Jun 2009 22:35:19 GMT

Who cares about Micheal Jackson, Billy Mays is dead! Those useless crap informercials will never be the same again! God speed Billy, God speed.

$10 says the Sham Wow guy had him whacked.

Killing Me Softly

barenomore@me.com — Sat, 14 Jul 2007 01:43:49 GMT

I am out of Paxil and having awful Zaps. I hate this fucking drug. I hate addictions.

I also got accused of stealing my Grandmothers wedding rings today. A few hours later when she found them I wasn't given an apology.

In good news Shandy and I are back together. We've been back together, actually. I luff love. Heh.

P.S. If you've seen a Palmetto bug...you've seen the ugliest creature in the world. Kthxbi.

My Wish

barenomore@me.com — Sat, 23 Jun 2007 02:11:52 GMT

I haven't written in this thing in so fucking long. I was honestly impressed that I remembered my password. So much has happened. For starters....I moved to fucking Florida for a girl (because thats how I roll *coughs*) and then we broke up.
How do I feel?

God Damn good question.
My heart is in that place where sleeping dogs lie and no words are good words and no touches are...appropriate and the soul and the body are....fuck. Maybe I should update more tomorrow when I haven't spiked my Kool-Aid♥

She Walked Along The Edge

barenomore@me.com — Sat, 24 Jun 2006 23:55:08 GMT

Its been a while since I've updated so I thought I would write a lil' sumthin' sumthin'. Been busy. Been avoiding people. I spend all my time with Brandon, Katie, Chantelle, and Kacey. They make me happy and its not all drama when we go out. Cha'.
I finally met Amee last weekend. She is awesome and so is her cousin. Fuck. I thought I had more to say but I don't. My brain is fucking fried. I wish I could think but it doesn't seem possible. I miss you. I honestly do.
Who am I kidding?! Sometimes I miss myself. I want to see Jaeda. I need to fly her ass out here.
I am craving new ink and steel. Anyone wanna come with?

I Won't Kiss And Tell

barenomore@me.com — Sun, 11 Jun 2006 00:43:15 GMT

Sometimes I feel like I need to be alone. I don't mean in the relationship sense but I crave silence and I rarely get that anymore. I'm in my room, secluded, just thinking about her and how she makes me feel. Brandon is having some girl over for dinner *rolls eyes*. I wish he was leaving with her instead. I adore Brandon but sometimes its nice to have a break. You know?! No word from Raychel. I guess I no longer miss her. Come to think of it I never really missed her...I was used to her and it takes me a while to get back to how things were before I met a certain person.
Kacey (Jessica's ex) and I hang out a lot. I think she is fucking kick ass. A lot of people have talked shit about her to me but I don't think it was all true. She makes me laugh and we have fun when we're out. There's no drama. Just good times.
Katie may come play next weekend. I hope she does. Its Fathers Day...fuck. I should buy him a card and say thanks for all his...uhhmmmm...money? Doing laundry is boring but consistant. I want pizza. Mmmmm pizza sounds good.
I can't believe I'm spending my summer in a classroom.

Unanswered Prayers

barenomore@me.com — Wed, 10 May 2006 04:32:37 GMT

When Marianne and I broke up (almost ten years ago) I was fucking destroyed. I searched for any feeling of happiness that I could find. I slept with guys, partied like a rock star and did all sorts of stupid shit in the name of pain. As the time passed I hoped that the pain would stop. We had broken up and gotten back together so many times that I wasn't convinced it was the final, final time for a year. I felt like I'd never be able to get over her. I used to listen to "Unanswered Prayers" daily.
To this day I think about her. I hope she is well but I'm over her. At least, as much as a person can ever be over their first love.

Unanswered Prayers by Garth Brooks

Just the other night
At a hometown football game
My wife and i ran into
My old highschool flame
And as i introduced them
The past came back to me
And i couldn't help but think of
The way things used to be

She was the one
That i wanted for all times
And each night i spent praying
That god would make her mine
Tnd if he'd only granted me
This wish i'd wished back then
I'd never ask for anything again

Sometimes i thank god
For unanswered prayers
Remember when you're talkin'
To the man upstairs
That just because he doesn't answer
Doesn't mean he don't care!
'cause some of god's greatest gifts are
unanswered prayers...!

She wasn't quite the angel
That i remembered in my dreams
And i could tell that time had changed me,
And her eyes too, it seemed
We tried to talk about the old days
There wasn't much we could recall
I guess the lord knows
What he's doing after all

And as she walked away
I looked at my wife
And then and there i thanked the good lord
For the gifts in my life

Sometimes i thank god
For unanswered prayers
Remember when you're talkin'
To the man upstairs
That just because he may not answer
Doesn't mean he don't care!
'Cause some of god's greatest gifts are
Unanswered Prayers

We're Not Gonna Pay Rent!!!!

barenomore@me.com — Mon, 08 May 2006 03:47:28 GMT

Spent it with Brandon (my new couch bunkie) and Raychel.

Woooo00000T!

Yesterday Brandon and I played Xbox 360 for 7 hours and then we lost alllllll our game because we forgot to put in the memory card. That blew a goat.
I love my new JEEP.

Yaaaaaaaay Boxes

barenomore@me.com — Wed, 03 May 2006 19:58:40 GMT

The UPS guy who loves Maggie (yes he comes here that often) came by and dropped off my Domino and Hostel DVD. Yay! That means after I pick Raych up at the airport and I go to the dealership to resign papers we can watch them!! Wooo000ooo000T! Ohhh and we're meeting Tiffany and Ane for dinner at the Excalibur. Good times, people.
I am bummed that I missed House last night. I effin' love that show! I was on the phone with Helena for like two hours then Jae then Raych then Chantelle. They just kept coming. No complaints here though. I love my friends.

Gah, I'm tired. Maggie and Koby insist on waking me up every morning by throwing toys on my head. ....the hell!? I blame Raychel for that. When I go to the dealership today I need to remember my custom checklist so I get everything I want on it. I want tires, rims, XM radio, etc. My car payment is barely $200 and I love it very much. It makes me happy.
Ha, I'm buying Koby a spiked Harley Davidson collar. He is a tough little fucker.

Angels Fall Without You There

barenomore@me.com — Tue, 02 May 2006 21:45:57 GMT

I rarely make a public post but today I figured fuck it! I don't really care. Some of my closest friends don't have an lj so what the hell?! I'll open up to all you bitches.
My life is....good. So much has changed though. Raych and I are still seeing each other. We're going on three months, me thinks. We see each other every week which is pretty good considering she lives in Utah. And she will be here again tomorrow!! Raychel is awesome and we have good times. We never fight or even argue. Thank GOD for the lack of drama.
I have many close friends for the first time ever. Matt, Rachel, Raych, Brett, Carrie, Tiffany & Ane, Jaeda, Amee, Jen, Leah, Kelle, Chantelle, Mark, Cae, Ritza, Brandon, and some other kick ass peeps! Its a good feeling to have people to count on and trust.
No more Saturn Ion for this kid. Last week I bought a 2006 Ford Focus zx3 and its being pimped out! I love driving it!! My little roller skate and shit...ke ke ke ke.
I am in the process of enrolling in ITT Tech and continuing my degree at CCSN. I will complete my associates in Information Systems within the year.
The animals are fine. Koby is blind as a bat but cute as ever! Maggie is small and talking mad shit to everyone! Prada caught his first (that I know of, at least) baby bird. Ewwwwwwies. It looked like an alien so I had to ask Raychel to remove it. *shivers* Nastiness.
My mom is getting older and encountering health issues. We are not getting along very well at the moment. My dad and I talk frequently and have some form of relationship...I think.
I have fallen in love with Hookah and thus the Hookah Lounge is my new favorite hang out. I can out smoke allllllllll you fuckers!! Guaranteed.
Ha, and the funniest part...............I am growing my hair out. Currently its longer than its been in a while. Wowsa!
Finally...I threw out my Birkenstocks. It was time for a change.

I Like To Talk....So Listen, Bitches.

barenomore@me.com — Mon, 03 Apr 2006 02:17:55 GMT

If you don't know how to listen to a phone post go here:
http://www.livejournal.com/voicepost/ogg.bml

Get Off Your Asses!

barenomore@me.com — Mon, 13 Mar 2006 22:08:37 GMT

Once the blog function starts working again I will post this in more detail BUT for now...I am looking for volunteers to help me with this: http://www.aidswalklasvegas.org.kintera.org/faf/home/default.asp?ievent=153043

It is the AFAN Aids walk here in Las Vegas, NV. I am going to walk so I am looking for fellow walkers and sponsers if you are financially able. I am willing to walk in California, Arizona, and Utah. If you live in any of these states and plan on walking LET ME KNOW and I will make the trip to help. We really can make a difference. THANKS!!!
-♥-
Stacey

Here is what you will find on the website:
Welcome to AIDS Walk Las Vegas 2006

AIDS Walk Las Vegas 2006 will be held Sunday, April 23rd. This year will be the 16th Annual AIDS Walk. Sixteen years of recognizing a disease that has grown to be a worldwide pandemic. This year's AIDS Walk begins on 3rd Street in downtown Las Vegas (Between Ogden and Stewart). Individual Walkers and Walk Team numbers have grown significantly, sponsorships by local businesses and organizations continue to increase, and public awareness rises with every walk.

Proceeds benefit Aid for AIDS of Nevada, the oldest and largest AIDS service organization in Nevada. For over 22 years, AFAN has been providing assistance to individuals and families living with HIV/AIDS.

Last year, more than 5,000 people walked raising over $250,000. Over 100 corporate and community teams raised 60% of the total funds collected. Teams represent some of the leading corporations and organizations in Southern Nevada including MGM Mirage, Macy's, Pinnacle Health System, M.A.C Cosmetics, UNLV, Wells Fargo and many more.

We hope you'll be a part of AIDS Walk Las Vegas 2006. Your support will make a difference!

Its Gonna Rain, Its Gonna Pour..Through Sickness And Worse Can I Love More?

barenomore@me.com — Sat, 11 Feb 2006 04:26:54 GMT

I love Catie Curtis. I forgot about how much I missed her. I got out for a bit tonight and spent some time with the person who knows me the best. The one person who has known me for the longest=my mom. She gave me great insight and I finally stopped crying. I hadn't known Danielle well enough to really care but for some reason I cared a lot more about her than I realized. I'll get over it...as I always do.
Kelle and I talked tonight. She told me she remembered how controlling Dana was. Funny how I didn't make any of that up. *coughs*
I don't need people in my life who don't believe me or trust me. Its that simple. I am starting over...brand new slate. Ya'll can come if you want.

barenomore@me.com — Sat, 03 Dec 2005 08:05:11 GMT

do be do be dooooooooooo

bed is for pussies.

Why Do We Lie Here And Whisper Good Byes?

barenomore@me.com — Mon, 08 Aug 2005 01:19:13 GMT

Dearest Bitches and Hoes,

I am officially making most of my enteries friends only from this point on. If you are a frequent reader in the life and times of moi I suggest you comment on this entry to let me know you're there so I may add ya. Otherwise, don't let the door hit ya where the good goddess split ya!!

Fugly

barenomore@me.com — Sun, 07 Aug 2005 05:39:29 GMT

I hate Lena. I mean, this isn't anything new but I feel like saying it again. She has to be the most stupid person I've ever had the displeasure of meeting. And her girlfriend, Mandi, isn't any better. Mandi is just desperate and horny. I text messaged Mandi "you suck and thats sad" a few days ago. I did it because I felt like it and I don't care if it bothered her. Anyone that stupid to get offended over a happy bunny comment deserves the pain and suffering. Lena left a comment for me that said something about fucking my dogs...I don't know if she was implying that I did that or if she was interested in the two of them for herself. Hmmmm. Yes, I love my dogs. Riiiight. Thats like...hmmm...fifth grade? It makes me sick to my stomach to know Jessica was with that thing. Sure Jessica says it was the grossest thing she's ever done and she regrets it but still. Blech. Naaaaaaaaaaaaasty.

The funniest thing about it is Lena's skank (Mandi) used to be into me. I give most people a chance but I couldn't give her one. Voices are a big thing to me and if yours is jacked I won't be interested. Plus she reminded me of the female humpty dumpty. I don't mean that in a rude way but if its taken as such, thats okay too.
Lena and Mandi are a couple made in hell and I hope they burn down there.

Breathe Into My Hands

barenomore@me.com — Wed, 03 Aug 2005 01:14:03 GMT

Stressed!! Gah, alright...*takes deep breath*....merf! Can I just say that I am moving in one week?! Fuck me in the goat ass! That is not a lot of time, people!!! akdfadkjfal;dfkjladskljfdalksj;kjdf;lasadkjlfsdakljfsdakjlsakldsjfafdadf I hate my life.
I have so much shit that we're getting rid of....its craise! I posted a bulletin on Myspace trying to urge Vegas peeps to take advantage but so far no hitters.
On the upside, we bought a 51' HDTV Flat Screen TV yesterday. Hells yeah! I am a happy boi!!!

This entry is sorta all over the place and I apologize....there is so much to do!!!

Nice

barenomore@me.com — Tue, 02 Aug 2005 19:09:20 GMT

Wow. Jaeda may be the funniest person in the world.

This is what she said to me:

jaedanicole17: fuckshitcuntboogerdick

It Goes With Age

barenomore@me.com — Mon, 01 Aug 2005 03:46:19 GMT

This weekend was all sorts of craise!! Having the new pup around is wonderful, though. He is such a loveable ball of fluff and I can't say enough how happy I am we got him.
Now on to this weekends events...we saw 'Stealth' on Friday night with Matt & Robin. I didn't care much for it but then again i wasn't expecting much to begin with. Saturday the three of us went to the Carnival World Buffet At The Rio. That place had food for days!! It all tasted yummy too.
I may have said this before but I need to get crackin' on finding a job this week. We are set to move into the new place September 6th and I want to be employed by then. Gah at the fucking employment issues in Nevada. I don't mean to sound racist *because I'm not* but unless you are of hispanic origin they don't want to hire you. Crackdonalds here I come.

Tonight we went to my moms so she could meet "Koby" and the dogs could run around on the golf course. The puppies are so cute when they play in the grass.

Well, this entry was going to be long and indepth but I forgot what I was going to update about. *le sighs*...Did I mention I turned 27 last Monday? Niiiiiice.

You Don't Know How Sick You Make Me

barenomore@me.com — Sat, 30 Jul 2005 19:27:53 GMT

Lesbians can't be friends with other lesbians. There always has to be fucking drama.
On that note, there is a special on gay marriages on. Too bad they had to lift that fucking law. I hate this country sometimes. It makes me sick to my stomach.

The Weirdness Is Definitly In The Family

barenomore@me.com — Fri, 29 Jul 2005 21:32:31 GMT

Dear Koby,

Welcome to Las Vegas. I don't wear any masculine scented colognes so I guess I should not pick you up. Tell Stacey to bring a pooper scooper and bag when she brings you over .

Love,

Grandma

Stacey <drawn2ink@yahoo.com> wrote:
Dear Grandma,
I wanted to tell you that I am very excited to meet you!! Everyone tells me how much fun you are and how good you smell. I would like to request that when I meet you and you hold me you try a male cologne. I am a big boy and don't want to smell "beautiful". I know that Prada is your baby boy but I am hoping that you will give me a chance. Prada and I have an akward relationship. We don't speak to each other but we make eye contact while passing through the house. I can't wait to come over and soil your lawn!

**This email was from the dog and it shows my mothers response. Clearly my oddness is genetic.**

Just The Facts, Ma'am

barenomore@me.com — Fri, 29 Jul 2005 05:10:19 GMT

Being in the middle of any relationship just sucks. Usually if you're in the middle its because the two people having issues are both your friends. More often than not, you're usually closer with one of the two. I like to stay out of shit like that so I usually answer questions with "I don't know" or "I don't want to get involved". Even if person A had said they were cheating on person B without being there and seeing it for myself technically I'm not lying. I don't like being put on the spot about anything. I know a lot of things but I don't devulge them. Sure if someone asks or backs me in a corner it gets akward and standing my ground becomes harder. If I don't tell person B about person A then I'm a bad friend to person B...but if tell person B anyway, I betray person A. Hell, if I don't say anything at all I'm still not being a good friend.
Like Jessica said..."if you're not going to believe what another person says then don't ask around". People in dishonest relationships who chose to only trust each other should keep their issues to themselves. If someone lies to you about something stupid....odds are they are lying to you about a lot more.

Free Posters!!!!

barenomore@me.com — Fri, 29 Jul 2005 01:21:54 GMT

Hi guys! As most of you know I am moving on September the fifth and I'm parting with a lot of things. I don't want to bother selling this stuff on ebay so I'm willing to give it away to people like you. Yay you!

These posters have been on my walls and have tack marks in the appropriate places (however they are still in great shape):

Tool (poster from Sober)
Radiohead "Hail to the thief"
Radiohead "OK Computer"
Radiohead (its all black with the group only)
Sublime "Livin' with louie dog's the only way to stay sane"
Alanis Morissette (her sitting down)

I can take pictures of them for you, if you want.

I also have an unused (un tacked) Melissa Ferrick poster from Willing to Wait. This poster is the CD cover from the album. I'll ship for free but if you want to donate money into my paypal fund you're more than welcome to. Ha, I won't turn it down but again it isn't required. I also have a hard cover copy of Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix that I'll gladly give away too. Sorry this sounds like a sales post.

Email me if you want or comment on the entry. Thanks!!!!

Holy Zaps Batman!

barenomore@me.com — Thu, 28 Jul 2005 07:14:45 GMT

About an hour or so I started having a really bad panic attack. I swear I felt/feel like I was/am going to die. I'm having Zaps something awfuL. I also notice that when I skip Paxil (even just for a day) I get a lot of these withdrawl syndroms. I thought I was going nuts having flu type syndroms. Anyway, I did some web surfing and found this out (hoping it will help someone else out):

Withdrawing from Paxil – The Almost Complete Guide

-By J.B.

The only complete information about withdrawing from Paxil, from beginning to end, has been piecing together message board postings from those folks who have actually done it. There has been a big need for this information in one source – not just bits and pieces. I’ve tried to gather as much as I could from former Paxil patient’s experiences (including my own) to share with those attempting to quit Paxil. Now there can be a source to direct people to for all of this information ; instead of having to post it over and over again. Feel free to print, share, and give links to this document.

When withdrawing from Paxil, you have to decide which method is right for you. Everyone is different, so experiment. Tapering the dosage down over a period of time seems to be the preferred way to stop - versus quitting Paxil “cold turkey”. The withdrawal symptoms during tapering are generally much less intense than cold turkey quitting.

Although some people can quit Paxil and suffer no withdrawal repercussions, countless numbers of folks have quit or tapered and have suffered nausea, dizziness, electric shock sensations known as “the zaps”, headache, flu-like symptoms, balance problems, anxiety, sleep problems, gastro-intestinal problems, sweats, vivid dreaming, sensitivity to light and/or sound, etc. The list goes on and on…..